Granted, it's not bad, it's just not as good as it could be. There's a lot of fear, and confusion, and confessions floating around in your mind and in your midst. But that's okay, time and closer proximity will fix that for you. It'll make life a lot easier, and moderate your feelings maybe. Make you miss them less, love them less, want them less. Maybe, but you doubt.
It's an overwhelmingly good feeling to know that someone is safe. To be sure that they are where they should be, out of harm's way.
The sad part is that your newest friend could be so much more, but your heart is somewhere else. And that's not a bad thing, but the way you've been treating them is apparently too boyfriendly, so they're bound to get hurt. Truth hurts. Don't we know that...
Ah well, there's not a lot you can do to change where your heart is being pulled. You can resist the pull, or just let it take you where it will. I'm too tired of pulling.
It's the kind of time where your tears mean nothing because your head and your heart made their decision long ago. And yet you continue to bring it back, bring back the thing that torments you. It's so true - you can love more than one person at the same time. It sucks. And it happens sometimes. You're not a fan of gambling, but you have to take a chance on one road or the other. Maybe it'll pay off.
Open your arms and spread them wide,
Nothing's going to hold me back this time,
I've been waiting for you all my life,
Counting down the minutes til tonight...
