PLACEBO n.

1) an innocuous or inert medication, given as a pacifier or to the control group in experiments on the efficacy of a drug
2) a very good band.

What do you do when you can't get what you want? When people are being stubborn, or noble, or protectionist? What do you do when you're close enough but you can't touch? You push every boundary known to man, and piss a whole bunch of people off in the process...


You never really realised how much people cared what you did, how much they let your presence affect them. You're surprised to hear that people become bitter because you're there, and angsty because someone gives you too much attention. Grow up. Perhaps they should stop looking at what other people are doing, and just focus on themselves. You mean, you don't really care if they're there or not, but I happen to be a dot on the map that everyone notices. You wonder what it's like when you're not there, whether you are talked about, or if people notice that they probably get more attention on those days. You wonder why they're so insecure...? It's incomprehensible, to me, anyhow. You wonder why it matters so much what you're doing, why it matters to unexpected people...

You wonder where things are going, as time flies by. Yes, it's flying. The week went past so fast that you barely know what you got done in that time. Also, you're going for your P's today, hopefully you get them first time round! You should, you did your 120 hours, fully, without bodging it at all. You win. :)